I wanted to close my blog. Though I’ve been writing (albeit on and off) for twelve years now, I still swing between battling despondency – why write? who bother? who cares? and if what I write is worth the money I spend maintaining the blog? – and an urge to share with the world, what I want to say.
Having a platform to say something creates a sense of self importance, that you, if not others, think it is important for others to hear what you want to say. That sense of self importance sometimes clouds your judgement into thinking you are wiser and knowledgeable than others. That somehow, you can preach to others, because after-all you have a pulpit. You see yourself as a teacher, a wise man, a learned man, a thinking man. It gets to your head – you know better than others. And, it is your obligation to ‘enlighten’ others.