Recently, I’ve been overlooked for a promotion at work. A lesser experienced & knowledgeable (in my opinion) colleague of mine was chosen. And, the worst part was that I had to report to him in some capacity. I’ve been huffing and puffing from that day complaining to whoever listens to me. But, today something changed in me, like the balance of some scale just shifted, I said to myself, “life is unfair, so what about it? What can I do now? How long will I feel bad? Let’s just let it go”. I immediately felt relieved. My rational mind had been telling me to quit moaning a long time back. But, my emotions never abated. What changed then now? Did my emotions run their course? Did they just washout from my body?
Archives for September 2013
I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o’er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.
I was reading ‘Antarmukham’ by Yandamoori Veerendranath last week and a few lines from the book really disturbed me and had me thinking:
“Every relationship is based on the policy of ‘give & take’. And, once we stop giving & (only) start taking, the other party in the relationship feel the brunt and will eventually lose love on you. They might still be in that relationship with you, but it would either be out of gratitude, responsibility or need. Such a relationship which starts in love, changes to responsibility and finally becomes a burden is not ‘love’ but an illusion”.
Isn’t it true of any relationship? Does it mean that a relationship will hold good only till we are capable of ‘giving’ in that relation? What if we end up in a situation where we cannot give anything in return but only take? Would love become gratitude or responsibility?